Decisions, Smchisions

I'm sorry to keep you hanging like Dallas did.  I think the biggest question that just has to be answered; who shot J.R.?????

Now back to the story. Nothing gave Buttercup as much pleasure as ordering Westley around....

Oops wrong story... if you want to continue on that topic... I'd suggest seeing The Princess Bride.  It's just inconceivable!

As to where we are, Dr. Suchanova gets all of my hearing results and tests and sits down with me in that second hour. She said it seems like there isn't the possibility of my hearing returning and that I seem to be a good candidate for a cochlear implant.  That was the last ever resort if I wasn't going to be able to get my hearing back and from the way that she spoke, it sounded like my hearing would never come back which is the cause of progressive hearing loss. I've hit milestones in my life at times when I'd wake up and couldn't hear anything.  It happened when I was in first grade and when I was 16.  Then eventually it would come back. She strongly encouraged me to consider getting the implant surgery. IT would change my life. She prescribed an MRI and an appointment with Dr. Chang,who was the highly specialized cochlear implant surgeon.

Here comes the decisions, smchisions that I had to make.  A life changing choice to consider.  I would say it was one of the hardest decisions I've ever had to make.  I never really considered getting an implant.  Back when my parents considered getting me one in high school, I was opposed it.  One of the reasons was because I loved competitive swimming.  (You ain't got nothing on me Michael Phelps!) At that time technology was sensitive and I chose swimming.  Never thought nor discussed it again.  Until now.

I had quit working because I found my lack of hearing caused so much frustrations.  I worked in an area where I help guests and communication is a must.  At that point, I felt even more restricted when it came to even think of finding a new job. That's when I started seeing the benefits of having a cochlear implant.  I wasn't sure if I wanted a machine in my body.  I was scared to death about the whole idea because it was a life changing surgery.  Everyone I knew encouraged me to get it.  I was referred to many stories and youtube videos of people getting the implants and hearing for the first time. I prayed very hard.  Every one had nothing but prayers and support to offer.

Then one beautiful Sunday morning I joined my sister at her church and in the middle of mass, I started crying uncontrollably. I wasn't feeling happy, sad, or anything.  It was a cry of peace.  At that moment I knew.  I was going to get the implant and everything will be alright.  God was with me at my side and I believed that he had a hand in this.

I had nothing but the faith in power of prayer.  So remember prayer is a powerful thing.  I encourage you to pray.  I will pray with you too. More tomorrow and God Bless!

 “Ask, and it will be given to you seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you." 

Matthew 7:7 

"And whatever you ask in prayer, you will receive, if you have faith.”

Matthew 21:22